I am sure that you, my reader friend, must have experienced a similar situation in your personal or professional life at some point in your life. That moment when we give way to shyness. It starts with a racing heart pounding, the discomfort in the throat, the butterflies in the stomach. Depending on the level, even your hands shake, an abusive and uninviting tingling that comes suddenly and you have no idea what to do. We are told to imagine that the public is nude, take a deep breath, count to ten. Nothing. And when you sing then it gets even harder to try to breathe through your diaphragm. Threatening desperation.

Today's post involves something more personal, because I don't suffer from shyness in my profession itself, but in another area that is a hobby for me, singing, and I would like to be able to share this with people so that, in some way, those who also have related problems can face them just as I try, haha.

I always liked to sing, ever since I was a child. I studied at a bilingual/bicultural school and had several interesting subjects, including music lessons. I was always very shy and I'm not that shy nowadays, but I still have a fear that has plagued me since I was a child: singing in front of others. It's even ironic to “see” me today singing on an app (Sing! of Smule) for everyone to hear when I was a child I would die of shame — in music classes, when the teacher would choose students to sing in school performances, I would sing very quietly on purpose. The low voice was practically a Internal scream of “I choose not”. I must have been about 7 or 8 years old.

I'm still terrified of singing in public. I sang silly things a few times at school before adolescence, among a few people... but if there were a lot of people, I kind of sangLocked a few times. It was like Windows, it had a bug, a blue screen, an error. The people didn't care so much about it because they knew I was shy—I'd let you know right away. When I'm not nervous or alone it's something else, it's quiet. It's a hobby that soothes me in difficult times and makes me feel so good!

I feel like it would be good for me to lose that fear. O App has been helping to improve the voice and it's extremely fun to record with other people who also share a love for music... but it's one thing to record without anyone watching and in a closed room... It's quite another thing to sing in front of others. I overcame so many barriers of shyness throughout my life... minus this one. I don't even want to be a professional singer, it's not my focus. I like to sing because I simply like it. It's a hobby that's good for me, you know? I wonder what it would be like if I really wanted to Living from the voice! It certainly wouldn't be easy to overcome this barrier, but perhaps the obligation would provide an extra effort. Now, I imagine those who suffer from shyness in the very profession in which they work. Imagine, for example, a lawyer who is ashamed to speak in public? Or even someone who likes or has graduated from a certain profession but feels unprepared to practice it.

Everything is part of a process, both personal and professional growth.

In my case, I don't think I worry so much about overcoming the shyness of singing in public because it's just a hobby, but it still bothers me. You never know when you'll need... use. Of course, it's difficult in some situation in my current life to be forced to live and sing, but you never know. And how annoying it is to have something cool to offer and not be able to share it properly with people because of shyness. However, as I said above, everything is part of both personal and professional growth. I believe that by taking risks little by little we can overcome many barriers. In my childhood I couldn't even speak to people properly and today that's no problem anymore. Every day is a day to learn and overcome barriers. For me it started with the app, maybe tomorrow I'll even be able to record a video? We'll see. No matter how long it takes, but eventually we can do it. It depends on wanting.

Now I leave you with some of my recordings in the app that I consider to be the coolest! Enjoy!

Alone:

Elfen Lied - Lilium (Piano Version)

The Nightmare Before Christmas - Sally's Song

Linkin Park - Numb (Piano Version)

Nightwish - Forever Yours

Tarja - I Walk Alone

Evanescence - Hello

Duets:

The Phantom of the Opera: Past the Point of No Return

Celine Dion - My Heart Will Go On

Eric Clapton - Tears in Heaven

Click here if you want to hear more there on my profile.

‍NOTE: the image that illustrates this post was the result of a montage I made last weekend to train colorization/manipulation of photos. The cool thing is that my love for Design started with this type of work... I made blog layouts and photo manipulation and spent hours learning code. Good times!