I was a bit upset that I didn't draw so much this week, it was just a doodle in ink pens of a mermaid — because of #Mermay, haha. I even wanted to participate, but I don't think I can draw one drawing a day this month, so I'm going to draw whatever I can. Also upset by the rush of the moment and the lack of focus on the drawings, until I remembered that the important thing is Show Up. No matter how complicated the week is, I'm always going to do some doodling, even if it's just one, you know? And I decided that I will not be ashamed to be in a moment a little Off, not least because deep down I will never be 100% Off. We all have moments like that too.

I need to focus on my work as Designer (which I love to do as much as to draw... although I love to draw more, haha) because, in a way, it's my gateway to my dream of being Concept Artist. Unfortunately, we can't give you a Pause in real life and go on with the dream once and for all. One step at a time. The bills arrive and responsibilities need to be prioritized.

One thing is certain, though: I'm not going to give up.

If you're also going through a similar time, don't fret. I've noticed that every artist — or whatever their focus/profession is — goes through moments like this. The important thing is to keep up the pace, even if it is slowed down, and to remove the word give up from your vocabulary.

Have you ever loved something to the point where you felt your body burn? A strong will, something you can't contain? As if it were your destiny to follow that journey? Well it is. That's how I feel when I say that I want to become one Concept Artist. In the same way that in the past I wanted to become a Designer and I succeeded, I succeeded, I am sure that I will be able to fulfill my dream.

I don't know if I already told you this, but right when I started the Graphic Design course at Panamericana, from the first day that our first-year teacher introduced us to his work as an Illustrator... wow, it was as if I felt a named. I kept thinking about why I had stopped drawing as a child and how much I enjoyed drawing. It was an inexplicable feeling, what I can say is that I felt at that moment what I I wanted to do my life.

AND Never I will give up on this journey, no matter how many years I struggle to accomplish it.

May this post serve as a reminder to both me and you of the importance of a calling. Answer it, fight for it. As long as you burn for it and it's firm inside you, nought it might stop you.

Fight for your dream. Always.